Saturday, August 13, 2005

...Please don't take a picture.

Today is not so great. Its hit me like a ton of bricks that I only have a couple of days left of Berkhamsted, easy, quiet, idyllic life left and soon I will be thrust into a rat race that I don't really want to be part of. I am not entirely sure that this is the way forward but I signed my name a couple of times and here I am.

I think uncertainty is probably a good thing - it makes you try harder to carve out a niche for yourself somewhere else, a new place to call home. However strange the next few months are I know that some people think what I am doing is a really good thing, so I guess that will spur me on, but its all a lifetime away from the real world. I think that's what I long for, to fit in the real world somewhere and actually do some good, somehow.

Don't know what brought this on really a word here, a conversation there. The answer to last posts thought was spot on - see rach's comment - Love, Faith, Hope. I love those words, especially hope - I hope for everything. I never get through a text without writing that word.

Today's Thought
Wisdom is Power - where is the wise man, where is the scholar?

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Its been a strange week...
I managed to struggle through the night shifts till Friday Night at 3am when my brother kindly took over. There was little incident apart from something thrown at the tent and a piece of fencing forced open. My reward on Saturday was an exuberantly priced trip to see Jamie Cullum at Audley End with some exceptionally good company. Jamie was great. He did insist on playing the piano with anything but his hands for the most part but hey, that's entertainment! His voice held out superbly too through the whole set. Have to watch out for more outdoor gigs like this next summer, 'twas very refined. Champers anyone?

Well that's the half of it. Next came my sis holiday club. It was astoundingly good. My sis is clearly very talented. I had to lead a handful of 12-16 year old girls (why?) doing stupendously difficult bible studies on stuff I didn't know. But it was fruitful anyway. Instead of ramming that down their throats in an irrelevant way I just answered them a load of questions on Christianity which was also tricky, but less so. Think I got away with most of it, I even think they learnt something - shock horror.

After a couple of days well earned break I had a wedding to go to, Matt and Katie to be precise. That was very exceptionally eye opening. It hit me. The whole 'what is going on'? I know that they are both very much in love with one another and that's great but for those who haven't got somebody like that where are they channeling all that love? Hopefully its not all going back to themselves cause that would be plain selfish, anyhow got me thinking where its all going. I am not sure about mine - maybe its slightly uncomfortable to be thinking about.

I would like to propose a test...

Todays Thought:
Rearrange these words into importance order and justify your answer. You have one lifetime.
a). Faith
b). Hope
c). Love